Such a great year: a reflection in the another year-end

2018 is approaching, and this year is going to leave us soon. So many things happened in our lives then, right? Some were delightful, while some others were painful. That’s life, after all. Just like a wheel, sometimes we are on top, sometimes below. And it rolls constantly, doesn’t it?

“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.”

Albert Einstein

I call this year as “year of finding, realizing, changing”. There were a couple of amazing things happened in this year. The most remarkable one would be the achievement of a kind of breakthrough in my life. While the others were so awesome as well. Like, eventually I got some “first experiences” that I’ve never had before. And also the most painful one was unforgettable.

While last year was the “turning point” year, this year is an awakening. Eventually, I realize my existence in this world, and what is it for. Yeah, I’ve found myself! Maybe it’s too late, but I can’t just blame other people for that, even God. It’s my fault, but I can’t blame myself forever either, for the sake of my future. I need to go forward and forgive the past, and let it as a life lesson.

In the first half of this year, I was suffering for a sort of false blind infatuation1. My heart was expecting someone too much, somebody who would never be mine. But, yeah, let it be the most naive, ignorant part of my life. For I have to move on instead of lamenting the past. And since thankfully God has sent someone else who is more decent for my future, inshaAllah.

Another part was that I now realize what really happened in my life so far. There were so many things that I never really learnt them. I didn’t know why exactly either, but what the most important is that now I dare to push myself to learn them.

Many people die at twenty five and aren’t buried until they are seventy five.

Benjamin Franklin

In the second half of this year, I felt like I have gained a kind of freedom or something like that for my life. I did a couple of long delayed procrastinations. And the most exciting part was that eventually I managed to pursue my dream. Something that makes me believe more to the power of dreaming. And now I have become a brand new of me. Goodbye my past!

I hope for the goodness for 2018 and the years after. And may the people around me are in the goodness as well. And I’ll try my best to love them.


So Melancholy

I think I don’t have to ask you pardon, reader, who subscribe this blog for articles about Open Source, programming, or other similar topics. As this time, I want to share my sort of private thing. You don’t mind to read, do you? Okay, thanks.

“Learn to recognize omens, and follow them”
― Paulo CoelhoThe Alchemist

I got a kind of melancholy feeling of my –not so long– past, exactly 4 years ago. I’m rather confuse whether it’s a short or a long period. I was working in Jakarta, then. Today, I got some “omens” that reminded me to that piece of my life, the awesome one. Actually every piece is awesome, indeed.

November, I don’t recall the date, though. There was an amazing experience that will be my precious moment, ever. Looks like I have written it somewhere, in another blog or maybe I’ve hidden it in this one, but whatever. As this is another special occasion to remember. You don’t have to continue reading, of course.

I was entering a job interview, then. It’s for a junior programmer or something like that. The thing that actually an unreachable, impossible chance for me as I was totally newbie. Something that I wouldn’t forget was the interview session, light and humble one.

Then it came to a discussion about my future, near one. I was asked about what’s if I can continue studying to college, what degree I want to enter, and why was that. And yes, I answered it so confidently that I want to study islamic economics.

You won’t believe, that 2 years and a half later, I really got the chance. A kind of precious grace God has given me, and there’s no other way I thank Him than to do my best, no matter how unrealistic my life currently is. That’s the thing I was so grateful for, as by then, I have determined my path.

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This is ephemeral world, after all

Hi my blog audience, it’s been a long time I didn’t write here, did I? Actually there was nothing weird nor wrong here. I just quite discouraged to write posts in English then. For I have decided to fill this WordPress blog with English posts only. And in fact, I am still learning English as well, so you may find some glitches in this post and few others earlier.

A few days ago, more precisely on August 25, OpenShift by RedHat emailed me and many other developers around the world. They announced something tragic news, that they would suspend their valuable OpenShift online v.2. And it’s going to happen just in a month ahead (September 30, 2017). It’s kind of surprising and overwhelming, as we have to migrate our production apps that run on OpenShift into the newer generation of it that we might haven’t given it try yet. Continue reading “This is ephemeral world, after all”


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